Sleepless Nights and Sun filled days

I can't even begin to tell you the last night that I slept through peacefully.
Most nights, I am up till about 4 or 5 a.m sketching, painting or just doodling my random thoughts down in notebooks. Usually when I look back at most of it, it all just seems like incoherent babble, but made perfect sense at the time. I'm not sure where my head is right now and I feel like I need to share what I'm feeling with others but I truly can't. I mean I never ever wanted this to be anything but an art blog, but let's face it..most days life gets in the way and you just need an outlet to vent! I have secrets buried deep in my heart that I can barely admit to myself, much less to anyone else. But everyone has secrets, I suppose, that's just what makes us human..um definitely babbling at this point!

OK, so that was a mild melt-down. Back to business now. This day began for me at 5 a.m as well. While waiting for my coffee to brew, I managed to get this really messy watercolor down in my little sketchbook. I messed up on the hair but didn't want to play around with it at that point! If only all days could stay this peaceful, warm and invitingly bright..

xoxo with love.

Quick Update!

This is a super quick post as I am in the middle of a lotta work but still feel guilty about not updating this blog regularly. Anyhow, am currently working on something for a juried art show and this piece has to be completed by next week. I'm trying something new...both with the medium I'm using and also a slight variation on my usual style. Hell if it works out...The theme is honey (in all its forms), and bees. This is my take on it but its in the very early rough stages still! Please feel free to let me know what you all think.
xoxo with love.

Standstill...

I'm really bothered by the fact that I'm in a bit of a creative cul-de-sac at the moment. While I have plenty of ideas and projects that are constantly on the go or in the works or floating ideas in my mind, for the time being my finances are really bringing me down. It's like I cant get ahead of the game at all. Just when I think I may be in the clear...WTF???!! Something breaks, something gets fried, more money has to be shelled out for repairs or supplies or something or the other. It's never ending. I also seem to be easily discouraged and extremely intimidated by all the talented and dare I say, working artists that are out there. Spending any time at all reading their blogs and seeing all the great work they seem to pump out in excess on a daily basis can really make me feel quite small. It brings to the forefront, tonnes of my unanswered questions: Am I not working hard enough? Am I not good enough? What are they doing that I am not doing? Should I just throw in the towel already and take up a day desk job?

With frustrations mounting like this, I'm just not sure where I stand at all.

xoxo with love

Mints Juleping....

Ahhhh, summer has finally arrived in Toronto. And while early mornings and late evenings are still crisp, breezy and cool, there is nothing more splendid than the hot afternoon sun beating down on your back. It's just that perfect weather for enjoying all things outdoors...something which normally I am quite indifferent to. But now is the perfect time for cute maxi dresses and long lazy afternoons lounging on the patio. Just that feeling of the deepest heat of mid summer that I long for; it just sends my mind racing to a wonderful and romantic time. I suppose that's mostly due to the fact that at a formative age, I read the Great Gatsby. In it, there is this pivotal scene where they are all sitting around, deranged in the airless heat, sipping mint juleps, before everything goes horribly wrong. It's really wonderful!!

Well I have been slaving away on a few projects but for now will post a photo of one that gives immediate gratification! My Asiatic Lillies. I'm hardly a gardener, but these flowers (while currently just a solo bloom) are stunning!

xoxo with love.

Something New...

So now that I have taken to posting a mere once a week for some reason, I have to figure out what the most important stuff is and blog on all that only! It's really difficult to keep up with the updates on Blogger, Twitter, Blellow, Facebook!!?? I really don't know how people manage all of it. I am desperately trying with it so please bear with me...I mean I suppose it's a good thing that I currently have a small following.
Anyhow, in the midst of portfolio work, I have finished this watercolor for someone else's blog. I just sent it in so I hope it's what she envisioned as well.

Back to my Tablet for the rest of the night oh yeah and figuring out how to update my website!

xoxo, with love...